||[Mar. 6th, 2006|08:47 pm]
Long time, again.|
Life has been a mix for me, I think it's the same for everyone. As I could be doing schoolwork, I resort into typing one of these journal entries, hoping to one day review my adolescent and young escapades I mindlessly participated in. And then reap the memories.
There are definitely some things I would've done differently. But I remind myself there is no reason to think that way, as you can't revert to change the past. Yet, I do dream what I could've been as a person if I abide by those said changes. A different lifestyle, different career pathway, a different association with other people and friends, etc.
I stand by those decision that created who I am, it isn't the most alluring lifestyle, but I know certainly not a horrible one.
Worry, is a word that I commonly associate with everything I do. Work, school, societal interactions, you name it. But reminders point me to the direction of that the real worries are things that will never cross my mind initially, and that these current worries will be the least of my problems.
What is ADD? Other than Attention Deficit Disorder, or how you say it. Lately, I've been noticing that it is very hard to listen in class. There will be random moments where I will be listening to the instructor in front of the board, all of the sudden, it seems that he/she has already finished most of the lecture. But I've missed most of it, still with my eyes fixed in the general direction, and my body still. My mother says to see a doctor, but I worry if they put me on medication. I always believed that ADD is nothing but a behavioral issue, but I never though it would get to me?
I can blank out at times, and at other moments, time seems to fly by quickly, without me knowing. I can wake up one morning at 6am, and by the time I get dressed, its 6:30am. It has happened on a few occasions. Maybe I'm getting old, but at 19?
A decision has been made where I will be skipping my next quarter at SCC, spring. I think this is in the best interests for myself, as I never did take a break after graduating from IHS last year. It will give me time to complete other matters and clear up my head so I don't have to worry during school quarters.
My Subaru portion of life, of course, keeps me sane in every situation in struggles. I owe a great deal to the automotive industry as it has given me something to live for, and I've met so many good people and have learned so much from them.
The project has been progressing slowly with the Impreza. I have purchased an Japanese Domestic Market engine from a Subaru-specific vendor/importer in Arizona. I am still waiting on confirmation, might need to give them a call since they are horrible at returning emails. An FXT drivetrain has also surfaced, so I will see if I can obtain a unit.
Coming April, I will also travel to Hong Kong. My grandmother has woken from her coma deal. It will be nice to see her again, as last time she wasn't awake at all when we visited her. There will other personal matters I will tend to, including things I should have done a long time ago. But I am excited...